This oneómore critical. After almost
deciding to call it a day, I felt I needed
to write: remember when your selflessness
was displayed in notable contrast to my
selfishness? Remember when you knew
the situation through me, only through me,
& so it had glaring effect, your offer
to accompany me there. Remember I said no
it takes forever to get to that place.
That was appalling.
Remember I went to the bathroom directly.
To brush my teeth, gain a taste
& I donít know if you could hear me,
but I went too far & gagged, basically
losing it into the plugged-up sink,
slow & old. Exiting, you never
would have guessed from my face,
or the mint of my breath, because
|I did not, in fact, end up yakking.
Remember or did this not occur. Did
the dreams not start again which wake me
at inconvenient hours. In neck-sweat
& freaked the fuck out, but thatís more about
me (again) than the ones itís really about.
Little vials you take in a certain order,
friendly promises of The Other Side.
Well, just remembering.
The ins & outs of effect. Studies
in contrast & gesture.
Pls. donít spread it around, impatience &